Perceiving

As someone who constantly overthinks and is extremely self-conscious of how others view me, I have always strived to fit in where ever I go. Moving and having to grow up in a foreign country at a young age changed me to become extremely self-conscious and almost as if the people's eyes and gazes were controlling my actions to fit to their liking. Therefore, I think it became my habit to think that everyone was judging me and hating me, even though they were probably just minding their own business as they had their own life to attend to. I would even say that not fitting in and being disliked was one of my biggest fears. With these negative emotions, I wanted to portray the sense of uneasiness and uncomfortableness that I often felt whenever I was around people and when they were "looking" at me. It creates the atmosphere where my anxious and scared emotions are shared to the viewers. I hope that this work can be relatable to people that feel similar to how I did and can be assured that they aren't alone in feeling this way.